Survival

It felt like I couldn't go on
Not after I'd lost you
A day of scorching heat
Right in the midst of an arid winter land
A hollow deep inside
An emptiness nothing could fill
I wouldn't hear your laugh anymore
Nor would we have those endless fights
No one to hold me close and whisper sweet nothings
No one to shush me and make my world right
I lost myself the day I lost you
I lost my grin although I smiled and sailed through
Wrapped in your worn shirts
My sweat smelling of you
Cooking your favourite food
And going to bed hungry
Wishing to just get you back
Wanting for just a few more moments with you
My heart still beat strong though
My limbs traitors worked just fine
I did not want to breathe
Each day as long as a year
Weeks passed and months too
I lived and I lived through...

I still smile, I still laugh
I dance and sing and jump and pray
No more hungry, I enjoy a hearty meal
I sleep at night, your dreams a pleasant memory
I still love you as I once did
But my steps don't falter anymore
I embraced your absence with you
Just as you embraced my pain from up there...