Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Modern Love
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Desire
He stood up
Mind made
Wanting to let go
To follow his whims
He'd waited too long
Dreamed too often
Waking up to another dreary day
But today, now, it was different
He was confident
Sure as the sun rising
He smiled, he joked
But his heart hammered
Palms were sweaty
He wondered once again
But no,
There was no room for doubt
He knew
The time was right
Now or never it was
He looked at the screen
The two scary words
They exhilarated him
Freed him
Jauntily he strode
To the glass cabin
Paper in hand
My Resignation
Typed in bold
He was ready
It was the next step
The step to his world
To his wishes
To his vocation
Suddenly his phone rang
A halt to his step
He looked at the screen
Frowning
An unknown number
It wouldn't be important
Couldn't be important
Fingers hovered
Habit won
He answered
"Mr. ABC?
I'd like to discuss
A job opportunity"
What? No
Not now
He laughed.
He smirked
"But wait.
We're offering... "
The smile slipped
Greed called
Confidence questioned
Doubt arose
Hand on the silver knob
He entered quietly
"I'm quitting sir"
"Oh. So you decided.
To follow your dream
To be a self boss"
Eyes downcast
A whisper escaped
"No. I got a new offer.
I'll be VP of XYZ.
And there's still time.
It's all but a dream.
I still have life.
I still have life."
Thursday, November 15, 2012
That Way
The way you looked at me
As I walked away
Not knowing this was goodbye
The way I looked at the screen
Waiting, hoping
For one small message
The way I waited
To hear your voice
Through my now silent home
The way I woke up in the middle of the night
Tears streaming down my face
I'd dreamed of you yet again
The way I tossed and turned
Asleep with open eyes
Fearful happy dreams may visit again
The way I turned to stone
To ease the pain, to stay away
Smiling gaily through the day
The way I realised I love you
Was when you pushed me away...
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
One
One tear
One lie
One fear
One laugh
One whim
One joy
One dream
Bit by bit
Put together
One by one
They make one life
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
The Living Dead
Sometimes life is nothing but a scar,
We smile, we laugh but its all a farce
The painted red of a jokers lips,
The tainted yellow sunshine drips
Eyes so dry, it hurts to see
A mind that refuses to be free
Memories and thoughts all that remain
Letters spoken, words unheard
We trudge along hopeless, lost
The living dead, a heart covered in frost
Pain and hurt we know not too
A numb feeling, loss, nothing new
Days and nights now as one
A wisp remained, a human undone.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Have you heard...?
Where love to dream and eat and sleep
Monday, September 24, 2012
The Ride to Peace
To believe in what other's eyes see,
To live a life blindly
Is not what I can be...
Feeling the wind rush through
The sun as it scorches naked skin
Rain pelts the wounds anew
Making me cringe in ecstasy...
Eyes slits against the dust
Pupils dilated take in the wonder
Dogs trampled over, trucks over-turned
I stare at sights in wide-eyed wonder...
The smooth, trodden way passes by
I continue on the pebbled road
The wind rustling through my hair
Clouds create a cool cover...
Streams sooth tired eyes
Raindrops quench parched pores
The beauty of the land mesmerizing
A haven, virgin, untouched...
Screeching wheels battle rest
I let my lids droop low
And easing my hold over the pain
Finally, let my body go.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Karma, You & Me
Do I believe in Karma?
That things are meant to be
We dashed into each other by chance
On that fateful Valentine's Day...
I don't believe in love,
And neither do you
But our hearts beat in sync
And your sentences I complete...
You read me like a book,
Read between the lines
And I know you by your silence
Your moods your words define
I love black and red and you love yellow
I am almost a Jain while you live for chicken
And yet the same cigarette we smoke
And rely on good ol' Rum 'n' Coke
We think the same thoughts, feel the same feelings
Share the same history and habits too, uneasy
Two hearts we beat together
Soulmates as some have labelled
But a mere co-incidence are you
Or my ill-fated destiny?
*A dedication
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Memories
It hurts
You hurt
Unknowingly, quietly
You make me weep
Sitting by the window
Staring at the stump
You make me wonder
And you make me dream
In a flash you disappear
Far away into nowhere
Only to test me
When I am deep in sleep
You are birth
You are life
And it is you
That lives post death
No heart you have
No mind to think
No soul to feel
No eyes to see
You are a wisp,
A shadow, a fear
You are nothing
But a mere memory...
Sunday, August 5, 2012
The Look
I looked at you standing there
Through the crack in my curtain
Staring, peeping, looking
The cloth slipped through my fingers
The curtains fell in place
The look on your face
Made my heart hammer
I hid, I rubbed my eyes
I slid the curtain apart and looked again
Yes, it was you
Right there in front of me
Walking the path before my door
Trying to look through
Trying to see me
You stood before my door
Wondering, thinking, wishing
You could ring the bell
Could gently knock
But you knew
It would not be answered
You would not be welcome
Not after what you did
There was still hope
I continued to look
As you moved to the balcony
Leaning against the rail
My palms sweaty now
Slipped on the fabric
As I rushed to the door
And took the phone
My voice shaky, angry
"Security, the crazy pool man
Is drunk and peeping into my room".
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Man, Woman & Human
Eyes glazed, through the mind we speak,
Moving in tandem to the rhythm of the world,
Laughter forgotten, as after smiles we run,
One statement and many synonyms
And yet, we're confused coz as we know
Sometimes words have no meaning...
The pictures painted on the wall
Speak, but no sounds come out,
In a dual world today we live,
Praying stone idols with ashen hearts,
And love they say is a feeling alien to me,
Creatures of habit we remain to be
Some things are best left unsaid,
And unspoken thoughts, we write them down
Deep down however, what are we?
"Perhaps you'll never know...
Coz maybe, I'll never show."
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
The Great Feast
It slid down the throat
Flavoured perfectly
Spices and herbs
Intermingling
The smell arose
Tantalising
Fresh, juicy
The fork cut through
Pink flesh
Roasted perfectly
The moans arose
As lips tasted
Sweet sweet skin
Manners forgotten
Gluttony, no sin
Spoons clattered
Empty vessels laid
To rest
Stomachs groaning
Desires still raged
Exotic feast
As it ended
She looked towards him
"What was it?
So fine, so rare
Food
A carnal longing
What beast stirred
Our desires so?"
Chucking, shrewd eyes
He gracefully blushed
"You flatter me
Madame
Pray, tell me
Why did he,
The flautist
Not attend?"
* An Ode to Hannibal Lecter
Smile Please!
It kills to smile when you only really want to cry
It pains to lie, when you want to just curl up and die
But wish the heart a fond goodbye
And let your mind squeeze your feelings dry
Coz you are what you choose to be
A strong iron maiden or a cry baby
So walk the path with your head held high
And you might succeed, if you just try...
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Lady Moonshine
Lady Moonshine love me not...
Lady moonshine in her sparkly robe
Twirled and swirled and called me hither;
Lady Moonshine love me not...
Whispering, giggling, blushing eyes
Mesmerised me, enthralled me, pulling deeper;
Lady Moonshine love me not...
She held my hand, brushed my lips,
She caressed my tongue, kissed my head,
Lady Moonshine love me not...
I lay there spent; gasping, waiting
Running my fingers through her red red hair
Lady Moonshine love me not...
I begged for mercy, I cried in pain
She ravaged me with her beautiful lips
Lady Moonshine love me not...
I felt a shudder, a chill pass through me
I slackened my hold, the bottle slipped away
Lady Moonshine let me live...
Friday, April 20, 2012
Fate
Love... Or was it?
If the 3 am calls were love or fun
Or just a rebellion against early sleeping
If the flowers were love or expectations fulfilled
Or just proving our superiority over nature
If the kisses were love or a mere satisfaction of lust
Or just something couples do under trees, in parks...
Were the dreams we shared love?
Or just a way to kill those lonely hours?
Were the secrets we shared love?
Or just a way to unburden our souls?
Were the endless 'Love You's love?
Or just a solace for our insane hearts?
For isn't love supposed to be forever?
Through the ages, lives and the seven seas?
Through the joy and pain
Through the thick and thin and even fat?
Love doesn't disappear, does it?
It still resides in a hollow heart...
But I don't love you anymore
Your name doesn't bring a smile to my face
Nor do your memories make me wistful
I do not feel a searing pain
Nor do I wish to run back to you
Ask you to hold me forever again
A habit you were
An addiction stronger than any drug
A part of life I was used to
A limb, just there, joined to me
You conquered my brain, not soul
A forgotten habit you now remain...
If you love someone, set them free
If they return, they're yours
If they don't, they never were
I thought I loved you
And so I set myself free
Never to return...
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Moonshine
The moonshine glistened
Against the the darkened night
The red swirling, tempting
As she moistened her charcoal lips
Heightened ecstasy
Blurry senses
Moonshine mingled with blood
Fairy dust twinkling against
The deep deep blue sky
Quickened beats
Slurry words
As she spread her arms
And flew, free at last...
Sunday, April 8, 2012
My Dream Woman
A little shadow here, a splash of colour
The muted light cast a mellow glow
Her fingers as they deftly moved
Biting her bottom lip, lost in thought
Bhavya, the ink on the placard spelled
I stood beside her, watching her work
The colours along with light as they moved
Casting images, creating illusions
The brushes dipped in paint sang my symphony
The dirtied, swirling water mirrored my random feelings
I stood by her side how long I know not
She continued her work, lost in thought
I slowly walked away, the exhibition ended
And as I rode home on my horse
The black mane dancing, long tail swishing
I thought of her riding by my side
A stranger she was, my unsung poem
Touching my heart, with her colourful tools
I knew not if I'll ever see her again
To praise her, to know her, to see her paint
Dejected I awoke from my deep slumber
Wondering if I see her, do I be spooked or do I rejoice
For she'd then be my dream woman who just came to life...
Friday, April 6, 2012
Coz You’re The One!
Thursday, April 5, 2012
The Modern Draupadi
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Life
Friday, March 30, 2012
Goodnight
rotting, scream...
A gentle trickle
into the sea
A stain so dark,
so pure so unblemished
Black soul,
no more charred
Vestal virgin
torn apart
of happy times
Disturbed dreams forever are...
Today
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Music
A memory killed
An innocence lost
Into sweet chains now
My wisdom binds
The past buried
The future unsure
A hazy present
Of you reminds
The innocent laughter
Heartfelt smile
In my soul
I still survive
Words bring back
The stab of pain
Music binds
As rhymes liberate...
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Humans
For the uglies to carry to the revered ancestors
To free their soul
Satiate their hunger
Free their shackles from Lucifer's abode
A death of joy
Imparting peace for the happy after-life...
Millions on earth as they die
Little fists outstretched for a grain
To stand up strong
On their twig like limbs
A tiny stomach bulging, air and dust swirling inside
A life of pain
Relief, as death unburdens the heavy earth...
Such is the mind
Such is the heart
And so are humans bound
Scorn for the alive
Tears for the dead
Life as it lies uncared for
Ashes saved in an ornate urn...
Daughter
Her brother fed, giggled happily
The ragged doll lay dirty, torn
A shiny cricket bat as it glittered under the sun
The innocent tears fell in thick heaps
He was cuddled, held to a mother's bosom
The leering father, adventurous uncle
His pocket bulged with crisp new greens
Books dusty, utensils gleaming clean
The swings in the garden creaked happily
Shrouded in shawls, ashamed of femininity
He in a semi-clad body lolled around
The wedding reds, a bankrupt sigh of relief
A hope relieve as his new wife
Again filled the coffers to the brim...
Purity
Where even my shadow prefers
To follow me not
The blighted skin of the moon
straining against the clouds to give
A single silver among the black
Shrouded in my body cold
lies a feeling, so strong, so unknown
Fear forgotten, horror hidden
A love so strong holds me true
Compassion for the white
Tainted so quick, the pure so corrupted
A passion for the pure black
The fallen, the void, untouched
As it encompasses all
Even the tainted light now pure...
Chubby Cheeks
Rosy lips, teeth within;
Curly tail, pink and pale
Eyes are brown, prettiest in town;
Supper fest, welcome the Chief Guest;
Tables groaned under his weight,
As he lay there, a pig impaled...
Friday, March 16, 2012
The Untitled Pome...
Dark, shrouded they walked
Spreading chill all around
Finally, homeward bound
Fear not these worldly wise
Beware, death walks before your eyes...
The Stepping Stone
A boulder I stumbled and fell against,
I cried and swore and eyes wide open
Walked slowly, hoping to reach my goal...
The stranger heaved and huffed and puffed
And carried the rocks to his store,
Chiseled and smoothed he carved out steps
And the boulder became my stepping stone...
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Vanilla Moonlight
A shoulder to lean on,
Is sometimes all we need
Holding hands,
Walking on the beach
Candle-light dinners,
Gazing at the stars
Coz you complete me
And I love you just as you are...
The Dream
I dream of it with open eyes
I have a dream and
I dream of being smart and wise
Of aiding the helpless, easing their pain
Of aiding little school girls, fearful of weight-gain
Of helping battered wives and mothers soon to be
Of holding a fragile hand and making everyone mentally free...
I have a dream and
I dream of it with all my heart
I have a dream and
I dream of dancing on hay-brimmed carts
Of tapping my feet to the merry songs
Of moving gaily without thought of right or wrong
Of shaking and hopping and singing along
Of dancing to every tune, every song...
I have a dream and
I dream of it, wishing it comes true
I have a dream and
I dream of being the next Nancy Drew
Of running round and round the world
Of deciphering clues with a mind whirled
Of punishing bad guys and earning fame
Of spying and hiding, yet earning a name...
I have a dream and
I dream of it every night
I have a dream and
I dream of writing tales of fun and fright
Of weaving a secret through pretty words
Of sailors and soldiers battling swords
Of gossip and love and castles of sand
Of creating a magical, alien land...
I have a dream and
I dream of it, night and day
I have a dream and
I dream of hiding my musings away
But then sleep vanishes and I face the light
Staring at a future, so dark yet so bright
I pinch my arm and on my feet try to stand
Sighing, frowning, get back to the task at hand...
Sunday, February 19, 2012
The Language of Greys
Deeply inhaling the smell of ecstasy,
His elephant son as he ensnarled the rat,
Chasing him towards supposed retribution,
Down in the garden the nigger danced,
Surrounded by his bevy of concubines,
And the orange robed man sang praises of himself,
Poisoning all ears in the vicinity,
The lady dressed in silken robes,
Showered gold teaching the language of greed,
The three headed man as he lorded over,
Pain and suffering raged under his reign,
The measly shepherd as he led the herd,
Millions crucified all for him,
One man deciding to guide the way,
Shrouding women, condemning freedom to blasphemy,
A woman the epitome of motherhood,
Resorted to Cupid's bow to trap the man of her dreams...
Fear, rage, anger and greed,
Lust, laziness, gluttony and pride,
Who do I believe in
Who do I follow now,
Nothing no more black and white,
For the creator himself taught me the world of grey...
*Disclaimer: This poem does not advocate hatred or anti-religious sentiments. Nor does it wish to go against anyone's beliefs. I would like to ask for pardon if any sentiments were hurt. It is just a form of personal expression.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Memories of English Literature...
Where no Shadows of Ghost (Ghos'h') can ever me haunt....
Families Running just a mere sight....
Long I to read books on summer dreams
that to screaming nightmares do not awaken me....
Where Romeos just wayward lechers
and for love they kill, not die...
Here men don't go gay for an easy lay
And women feel safe only with 'men'...
Dream Children create fears of population exploding
And Schools of Knowledge just google and internet!
Where for a Corruption case you bribe the judge
And Courageous Mothers battle the fear of school portions...
Romantic bringing mills & boons to mind
Victorian, when you manage a first class!
Jacobean, perhaps Jacob's siblings
When quality is anything that makes a profit...
Sen bringing a sensuous diva to mind.....
A bridge across
A bridge between now & then
Practical world outside us
Battling of a different world within.....
Dedicated to all my batch-mates of T.Y English!
Ba-Ba (Baba) Black Sheep
Why are you called thus?"
"Ah! My child the mystery of life
will be unrevealed soon…"
"Ba ba black sheep
(Baba black sheep)
have you any wool?"
"Yes dear, yes dear,
three bags full!!"
"Then my father, old father,
will you lend me some?
A tiny ball of gold & silver
should do mum & me
through winter..."
"No no my child!
(Are you my child?)
That one is for my master.
But I'll see what can be done
should the lovely mother come."
"Master? MASTER?
Who is YOUR master?
You the father of all!
And mother is busy
counting the greys."
"Greys? Greys?
The last I saw them
Thick & brown!
And my master is
the blue suit yonder..."
"Master?!?
Blue suit yonder?
The white with the tie?
The one who killed
my brother?"
"Ho hum, Ho hum,
Anthing more you want?"
"A ball maybe of copper
Baba or even
bronze would do by..."
"O o No no,
That ones for the special dame.
A creamy body,
dash of pink (glazed eyes)
Mr. Blue suits wife."
"Nothing for us?
Nothing for your sons?
To help you we bruise & toil!
Three bags wool.
THREE BAGS WOOL!"
"Bags you fill,
Happy & gay are mere dreams
for you mortals but not for
Baba black sheep (ME! ME! ME!)"
The plain mystery now revealed
of black & charred souls.
And home dejected went
the little boy
who lived down the lane...
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Blissful Sleep
Satisfaction
Strawberries ripe
Gentle tickling cream
Bed of roses
Feathery touch
Ice-cold bubbly
Gently warming
Soulful music
Fills the heart
As the lips whisper
A happy sigh
Finally Satiated...
Santa-Claus
The bearded man jingled the bell,
A bulging sack upon his back,
A merry glint in his eyes...
A chariot drawn by thirsty wolves,
Starched-white fluff covered his frame,
Rotound belly rumbling, groaning,
Cheeks a-pink, glowing, red deep blush...
The joyful ones gathered all around,
His hand outstretched imparting joy,
Gleam nesting on each little flower
On his lap as they merry made...
The empty sack, littered ground,
Wolves' hunger finally satiated,
Santa trudged back to his little hole,
His bright red robe in moonlihgt aglow...
Monday, January 30, 2012
A li'l helping of time
Here wasting even a second
Feels like a crime...
Castles in air to build and create,
Day-dreams to live
C'mon, buck up mate!
So much to do, so little time,
Here wasting even a second
Feels like a crime...
Hour upon hour a clock chime beckons,
Tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock
Boggled minds blow wake-up horns!
So much to do, so little time,
Here wasting even a second
Feels like a crime...
Stop a second, sit and breathe,
Look out the window
Dream like a bird freed!
So much to do, so little time,
Here wasting even a second
Feels like a crime...
Forget your rush, forget the haste,
Life lived once,
Hold moments, don't waste!
So much to do, so little time,
Here wasting even a second
Feels like a crime...
And yet as the hands strike,
Another duty calls,
Dreams and wishes go on a hike!
So much to do, so little time,
Here wasting even a second
Feels like a crime...
Ciggy & the Beach
Set against the dark twilight sky
A life slowly passing out
Providing solace to the blackened lips
The crabs dotted around
Lost in the quest for freedom
Broken shells littered the rocks
Waves crashing, breaking over the bank
The light from the dim stars
Guiding forlorn sailors
The light from the joy-stick
Slowly sapping life out...